Board Thread:Fun and Games/@comment-24187738-20180225155956/@comment-25178636-20180225164731

I cannot believe that I'm saying this, but my best girl Dia Kurosawa has helped me in moving on from my former crush.

Hi, my name is Cokorda Krishna Sadhana. I'm from Indonesia and I'm a university student currently studying in Japan. My Twitter handle is @KrishnaSadhana7, while I can be reached via e-mail at either krishna.sadhana007@gmail.com, krishnasadhanaofficial@gmail.com, or diakurosawabestgirl@gmail.com.

For the past three years or so, I have a crush on a Vietnamese girl. She was my classmate in my Japanese class and also she was a close friend of mine, as she was one of the first friends that I made in Japan. She was nice, friendly, cute, and really mature for her age, and she cares a lot for her friends, myself included. To be honest she's the complete opposite of me - she's really diligent and serious, often rarely hanging out with her friends due to her studies, preferring books over people, while I'm a people person and can be quite laid-back at times, with a some chuuni tendencies here and there (like Yohane!). But you know what they say, opposites attract.

I fell in love with her for three years, confessed to her a couple of times, both times I was rejected and condemned to the friend zone. I still have the text that she sent me in my phone to keep reminiding myself, that she's not the one. We're never ever going to be together, no matter how hard I try. She only saw me as a lovely friend of hers and she doesn't want to open a new chapter in our relationship. But I foolishly pressed on, and it took me an intervention from her best friend (who's also another good friend of mine) to make me realize that me and her, we're going nowhere. We have too many differences, in personalities, in hobbies, and in our future plans (I wanted to go to the US/Germany for my grad school, she wanted to stay in Japan to work).

I have been a fan of Sunshine since it was first announced, as I'm a Love Liver since the School Idol Movie (Nozomi was my best girl from μ's), however I don't follow the fanbase that much. Initially I was conflicted between Dia and Mari for my best Aqours girl, Dia because of the fact that Arisha voiced her (I'm a tokusatsu fan as well, so I knew Arisha from her Go-Busters days), while Mari because of her fun personality and her memes, however as time goes by, I grew attached to Dia. She reminded me of my crush - mostly because of her hardworking attitude and her mature disposition. However it's not because of Dia's similarity to her that made me like the lovely onee-chan. It's her acceptance in letting Uranohoshi High go, alongside the other girls of Aqours. They knew that they had tried their best, however reality often threw a spanner to the works and things does not work out according to their plan, no matter how hard they try. They say if you truly love someone, you must let someone go. And because Dia and the other Aqours members love their school so much, in the end, they must let the school go when the time has come for it to close down. Same goes for me and my crush - I must let her go in order to make her happy and to return our beautiful friendship to the way it was before.

Plus side, with Dia by my side I have a distraction so that I don't think about my former crush that often. They say that if you have a hobby, you'll have a positive outlet for your thoughts. So I began buying Dia-related merch whenever I feel lonely - something that I had never imagined to do during the early days of Sunshine. My best girl has slowly phased my former crush out of my mind, and even thanks to her I'm dragging a few friends of mine to idol hel-I mean heaven. I gave one of my best friends a Kuru-Kuru Mikan Roll with You's picture on it and now she likes You. I gave a Chika nesoberi to another good friend of mine and she pledged to love her until she dies. I even got my former crush to join in the fun - with our friendship now mended, I gave her a mini Riko nesoberi as a good luck charm for her job hunting trip, as she's going out for interviews with a number of Japanese companies over spring break. I wanted to give her a Dia one, however they only have Chika and Riko at my usual hobby shop, and since I think that personality-wise she's more like Riko (refined and mature), I got her that as her good luck charm.

I have never felt happier before in the past three years, and I owe it all to Dia Kurosawa. Thank you, Dia <3