Just a little bit about myself, I've been a Love Liver! for some time now, ever since June 2013. Love Live! was the one time I ever picked up a fandom in my life which is why I follow it so fervently. Seeing Emitsun smile at me up close at AFASG 2013 made me swoon, and 8th February 2014 was the first time I ever kyaaa-ed so hard when I attended the live-screening of their 4th live. I'm a 2.5D fan, meaning I follow both the 2D and 3D aspects of the project.
Ever since I started it's been a slew of experiences, both with the official content as well as fandom things. I've managed to catch every live since the 4th so far mostly through live-viewings in Singapore, but Aqours 2nd Live was the first time I was actually at the venue itself for both days and there's probably no turning back from that. The community we've founded in Singapore is great, but meeting people from all around the world is even better, not to mention getting to see the seiyuus with your own eyes.
On the fandom end I created an extensive number of pages, but my greatest work would probably be the Wikia Twitter, which I grew from 700 followers of SIF news to where it is now. It was the first information account pushing out news in English with minimal lag-time, and still aspires to maintain that position.
Used to put a lot more time into translations for the Wikia but have since levelled off, now focusing on management of the Wikia Twitter and other related assets instead. Currently working so haven't been able to invest as much time into creating new content but still around to manage things.
Favourite Shippings: NicoMaki, NozoEri, YohaRiko
Fanfiction Profile (LL!-only writer, retired): Lucia Hunter
|Disclosure: Raison d'etre - 29th September 2015|
|"The most important reason or purpose for someone or something's existence."
It sounds overly plain because it is, an over-simplification of something that is by right incredibly complex and impossible to grasp.
I've spent the last 1.5 years working on this Wikia now. First as an editor, then as a translator, then admin, and now I handle all the latest news on both here and the Wikia's Twitter account. But I've never really explained to most why I do this much work here.
You see, the reason is this. I really, really like idols.
Let's rewind a bit, back to two years ago. Actually no- let's rewind further, to six years back.
It's a simple story, of how I got into a failed relationship that was so intense it consumed my life. And the flaming wreck that it ended up in pretty much destroyed it.
I spent the next few years in limbo. It was a bad phase of my life, simply following orders, existing just to continue living without really knowing why or what for. Hope was just some distant concept, the idea that things would change in my life once I got into university. But deep down inside, I knew that I was becoming someone that wouldn't draw any attention even if that was the case. That it wasn't the place I was in, but the person I was that failed to make a difference. I spent my time withdrawing into my shell, barely talking to others, watching anime and playing visual novels.
In June 2013 while surfing Twitter, I stumbled upon someone's tweets that I still remember to this day. It was an account of someone RPing as Kirino, and their tweets were along these lines: "Snow halation is the best live ever." I still follow this account, and I've gotten to talk to the person over LINE to express my gratitude. Because these are words that will probably stick with me forever.
Out of curiosity I looked it up, and found out Love Live! was an anime. I marathoned the first season immediately. I didn't like it.
I started seeing screenshots of SIF on Twitter. I installed it and tried it out. I was crap at it, of course.
I noticed that it had a lot more songs than just the anime and so I listened to some of the songs from the duo singles. I thought the voices were kind of bland, nothing really outstanding.
But as I continued playing, as I continued listening, something began to change. Despite not having been exposed to any new story material, I began to like the characters more and more.
There was something there, something about trying your very darn best no matter what you face- and I'm writing this now with tears rolling down my cheeks- that was such an abstract and absurdly simple lesson that sometimes we forget about it. Sometimes it's just too hard to remember, in the darkest of times when the whole world seems against you, you forget the only one who can brighten everything up is yourself.
That same month I signed up for my university's Japanese Studies Society freshman camp, and began studying Japanese in my freshman semester.
Fast-forward two years to the present, where I have great LLiver friends here in the Wikia, on Twitter, and on a private LINE chat with serious LLivers from all over the world. Where I can now speak a language I couldn't even begin to understand back then. Where I've become president of a society I once almost didn't dare to join. And also where I have a girlfriend, with our first date at the local Love Live! Movie screening.
As much as I try to define myself as someone that is more than a Love Liver, I do not deny that this is the one original impetus that opened so many doors for me, and given me so much these past few years. It's what kept me going through all these tough times, and got my life back on track.
This is just my own story of what Love Live! means to me. I have friends who experienced the same things; whether it was through Love Live!, iDOLM@STER or any other idol group really doesn't matter. This is the real weight of what idols mean to us.
And that is why even as the official content of Love Live! comes to a close, I will be sticking around for as long as I can, working on Aqours and whatever else is to come. Because if what little work I can contribute can become someone else's miracle, that would already be enough for me.
I really, really like idols.
I hope you can come to like them too.
|Love Live!, and moving on. - 25th March 2016|
|As much as I hate playing into stereotypes, I am pretty much the cliched INTJ who is incapable of understanding and dealing with their own emotions. It comes in bursts, sometimes disguised as inspiration, but if I don’t write it out I will never be able to really comprehend it– or accept it. Words have always been my one real coping method to deal with things. This is just going to be a hodgepodge mess of all my thoughts with no structured flow because that’s pretty much what I am right now.
It’s been three months and twenty days since the news broke that the 6th live would be the final live, from a bad leak that came out a day before it was supposed to happen at a prerecorded stream. I still remember that day, frantically searching for the video that was just as rapidly being reported and removed. Hunting for links, for images, trying so desperately to confirm something I didn’t want to confirm.
I don’t know how I felt at that time. I only know that what I must have logically thought was this: “I have to confirm this. I saw this coming. A part of me knew this was going to happen. I need to confirm it, and then get the news out there, because people deserve to know.” Even if I was reeling in shock and disbelief on the inside, I was probably just numb. I needed to believe that I had known this was coming, because that was the only way I could be in control of a situation that was rapidly spiraling out of my ability to understand. “Do your job first. There’s time to think about it later.”
Perhaps that’s the biggest excuse I’ve been using all this while, “there’s time to think about it later”. But now, less than a week away from the live, perhaps I’m finally out of time.
I’ve already written half a year ago on what Love Live! meant and means to me. How it was a crucial part of everything I have in my life right now, and opened up so many doors. It gave me strength when times were bad, it gave me the reason to pick up new skills and a new language, and the opportunity to try so many, many different things. In Love Live! alone I’ve somehow started from translator and gone on to become a Wikia admin, Twitter handler, community manager, scanlator and also a subber. It brought me and so many wonderful people together, even my current girlfriend. It’s given me an avenue to reach out to thousands, any time I wanted to. It had always been there for me, to the point that I had never really considered what it meant for it to not be there.
In the past few months, the percentage of Love Live! music in my playlist has dropped. Admittedly, the quality of their music has also been dropping in my opinion, lacking the same fire and originality they used to have. But even so. Even so, for it to be over. That’s just- That’s just not right. They were supposed to keep producing music. They were supposed to always be there for me, for me to have something to always be excited about.
I was always supposed to have new content to translate. New songs to listen to and slowly understand, new drawings to squeal over. It is deeply ironic that I started the LL Wikia Fundraiser literally the day right before the news broke. I had thought I was going to commit myself for another year. The day right after, I received a serious blow to that commitment.
I don’t know how I’m going to deal with this, honestly. It’s taken me the last three and a half months to even process it and all its implications. It might take me the rest of the year, maybe even the rest of the decade for it to slowly sink in.
For the most part, I guess it’ll just fade into the background just like it already has. Covered over by the hubbub of daily life, a life it helped me create. And it’s the quiet moments, the times when I’m alone and looking back, those are the times when that hollow void will sting the most.
To me, there’s a reason why Emitsun had taken the time to deny that it was a disbanding, that they were continuing on but with no more singles or concerts. Though they are effectively the same thing, it was all in the nuances. Disbanding not only has negative connotations, but the very idea that there was even a reason to break up, isn’t true. μ’s was simply a group that had outlived its peak marketing potential. They had better, far greater things ahead of them in their careers. But there was never anything wrong about μ’s.
Like a group of friends graduating from school, their time together had come to an end purely out of circumstances, and not by choice.
It is a time that will forever belong to all of them.
It is a time that will forever belong to all of us.
Love Live! School Idol Festival
Schoolido.lu Profile: LuciaHunter
Been playing on the JP server since June 2013, and sticking to only 500-yen packs at most. I don't like grinding for events either so I am usually content with going as high as my naturally-regenerating LP can reach without using LoveCa Stones. This also keeps me from burning out: after having played this game for three years, it gets real old real fast no matter how many new features they push out.
I believe in the luck of the draw and that saving LoveCa for draws is a better option than grinding in events.
- Early Summer 2018: Aqours Third Live Tour ~Saitama~ Venue
Past Events (Click on links for event reports!)
- 9th Nov 2013: AFASG 2013: Love Live! special feature with Nitta Emi, Mimori Suzuko and Tokui Sora; Meet-and-Greet session.
- 8th Feb 2014: μ's →NEXT LoveLive! 2014 ~ENDLESS PARADE~ Live Viewing
- 6th Dec 2014: AFASG 2014: Live Stage feature for Love Live! School Idol Festival with Mimori Suzuko and Tokui Sora
- 6th Dec 2014: AFASG 2014: I Love Anisong 6th December with LiSA, The iDOLM@STER, yanaginagi and fripSide (JOLNOOOOOOOO).
- 31st Jan & 1st Feb 2015: μ's Go→Go! LoveLive! 2015 ~Dream Sensation!~ Live Viewing Day 1 & Day 2
- 21st Jun 2015: CharaExpo 2015
- 8th Oct 2015: Love Live! The School Idol Movie Singapore screening
- 28th Nov 2015: AFASG 2015
- 31st Mar & 1st Apr 2016: μ's FinalLoveLive! 2016 ~μ'sic Forever~ Live Viewing Day 1 & Day 2
- 9th & 10th Jul 2016: C3 CharaExpo 2016 with appearances by Anchan, Rikyako & Shukashuu, Emitsun & Mimorin.
- 25th & 26th Feb 2017: Aqours First Love Live! ~Step! ZERO to ONE~ Day 1 and Day 2 Live Viewing
- 13th May 2017: ANiUPa!! Concert with ALI PROJECT, Aqours, May'n, and Wake Up, Girls!
- 29th & 30th Sep 2017: Aqours Second Love Live HAPPY PARTY TRAIN TOUR ~Saitama~ Venue
- 10th Feb 2018: Love Live! Sunshine!! Aqours Club Activity LIVE & FAN MEETING Trip to Asia -Landing action Yeah!!- Taiwan Venue
A Final Word
Here's Konohana Lucia from Rewrite, a visual novel by Key. She's my namesake who largely shares the same personality: tsundere, protective of friends and with a strong feeling of justice.
Which is why this quote is here, because as it turns out I'm the one enforcing the harsher rules most of the time to protect the other users of this Wikia, and sometimes the other admins from having to dirty their hands. So behave by the rules, people, or face the iron hammer of justice.